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26/09/2026 : Adjusting to university

About three weeks ago, I had my first day at university. Here are some of the things that changed so far:

Longer lunch breaks

At my high school, we only had about fifty minutes to eat lunch. If you take into account the fact that the waiting line was usually quite long, you easily understand why it was usual for students like me to not have a lot of time between lunch and class
At my university, students get an hour and a half for lunch break. Even though the waiting time for the restaurant can be really long (because of the cost of the meal, but I'll talk about that later), I still manage to get plenty of time for myself after eating. In the best cases I can easily have a little less than an hour. I guess when I'll get more work to do, I'll use that time for that, but as of right me and my friends just chill in the campus. Sometimes I read a book as well.

More free time in general

Like most french high schoolers, it wasn't rare for me to have school from 8 A.M. to 5.30 P.M., which is, as you can guess, a pretty long school day.
It is still possible for me to have days like this at university, but they are less frequent, and sometimes there are days that are incredibly light. Today, for example, I just had class for two hours, which meant I finished at 10 A.M. . This is pretty cool, as it gives me more time to do things that I like. In fact, I have taken this year as an opportunity to focus on my hobbies, even when I finish at 5.30 P.M. , instead of just sitting on my chair doomscrolling all the evening. But, once again, I'll get to that later.

Meals

Meals at university are cheaper than in high school. This is due to the fact that, since May of last year, every public university restaurant (managed by the famous or infamous CROUS) serves a meal that costs one euro. You read that right, one single buck. There are some requirements to it (you need to pay with your student card that's linked to an app and you can't take everything on the menu for one euro, only certain options) but they are quite easy to meet. In comparison, at my high school, I paid about 4.30 euros per day for a meal. To be honest, I never really had to worry about how the price of a meal, and I still don't, because my parents pay for them, but I easily can understand the appeal of having to pay so little for a full meal with entry and dessert (I don't think we should even pay to eat but that's another topic).
The consequence of it, though, is that the waiting lines at university got much, much longer, as eating at the university's restaurant, or even the cafeteria, is now cheaper than buying something to eat outside. And not only it is the case for my university, but also for a lot of other universities all across France. I still do think that the one euro meal is a good idea, but clearly the government did not think about the infrastructure that comes with it. If only they cared more about education...

No textbooks

What a relief! We don't use any textbooks in university. The textbooks were usually the heaviest thing in the backpack and I sometimes had to carry 3 or 4 to school in a single day. At least, university teachers don't use that, but just give us handouts and we take notes on them or on our copybooks. That also means I now have to organize my stuff in a different way, but I'll figure it out. And to be honest, it is still better than having to carry a really heavy backpack.

Subjects

High school subjects, even in France, are pretty general and predictable. Stuff like Math, French, Physics, Chemistry, Physical education are normal subjects. But I'm now studying maintenance engineering, I have, alongside Math, stuff like Electricity, Maintenance Methods, etc. There's even a Welding class! The weirdest are probably the subjects that have a tiny time dedicated to them. I just the only class of a subject called "Levage", and it lasted 40 minutes. Odd stuff.

Longer commutes

I used to live about twenty minutes away from my school, now I take about thirty-five to forty-five minutes to go to university. I also almost entirely have to rely on the fact that the subway is going to work fine, because I haven't thought of any backup yet. Actually, I do know a backup plan that takes more than an hour. So, unless I know that the subway is not working as soon as I wake up, I have no chance to make it on time, especially if I am in subway when that happens. Public transit is quite unpredictable, but most times it works fine and I still would choose that over the car. Especially knowing how many traffic jams I could have to sit through if I had one. Also, the advantage of longer commutes is that I have more time to listen to new albums or read books.

Less vacation time

To be fair, students and pupils get a lot of vacation in France. The norm is a two week break every 6 weeks or so, even though it depends on which zone of the country you're in and there is a two month gap between spring break and summer holidays. The only thing that has changed at university is that the autumn break and the break in february are only one week long.

Others

As someone who has been to the same school since first grade, it seemed like a bit of a challenge to suddenly move on to another establishment with new personnel, new architecture, and most importatly, people that I haven't met in my entire life. But, in the end, and despite my rather introverted nature, I did adjust to the new environment quite fast and made some acquaintances, which I am pretty happy about.

I also have found myself going outside quite a lot these last few weeks, after school. When I finish the day earlier, I tend to just go to a huge park that is two subway stops away from university. It's a nice park, and there are lots of places to walk to, and animals to observe, and a pretty large pond. It is still sunny out there so it's nice to go there but when winter comes that'll be a whole another thing. I suppose I could go to the library instead...

...Because, yes, I started reading again! I usually do it while I'm in the subway and I know I don't want to doomscroll more than that, but I should start doing it at home too, for the same reason. This year I decided to spend less time on social media (like an hour per day, maybe), which is pretty difficult considering how much time I usually spend in there, but I'm adjusting my habits. In fact that is also part of the reason why I'm making this website, but anyways, back to the books. Right now, I'm reading spanish-speaking litterature because I can read and speak Spanish, and because yes. I'm currently finishing Sin Noticias de Gurb by Eduardo Mendoza and I'll then read Bodas de Sangre, by Federico García Lorca, if anyone is curious.


That is quite honestly everything I could have thought of, but if anything comes to my mind I might write it down and make a sequel. Have a nice day!

7/09/2026 : Music update

I currently I'm working on an EP (that might or might not get released on Bandcamp in a few weeks time ;-) ) and, from a musical point of view, the centerpiece of it is an 8-minute long song inspired by certain doubts I had during the summer. It has a ton of instruments, patterns and a couple of time signature changes and polyrhythms. If I had to shorten to one sentence: it is probably the longest and most ambitious song I've made for now. I just finished composing it and it will probably be a nightmare to mix and master (as if I was good at mastering, lol), and I don't even know whether to record the drums or keep them as MIDI. I guess it'll depend on whether or not I give myself the time to learn the song in order to play it properly, and how much time I'll need to finish the rest of the songs on the EP. Anyways, here are some pics of what my DAW looks like with the track finished.

Screenshot of music software FL Studio. There are 13 tracks used, each one being colored in a shade of blue, red, green or yellow. Some of their names include "5/8 pluck" for the first one, "Chord Synth" for track 4, and "Drums" for track 2. Another screenshot of FL Studio, showing the length of the song, eight minutes and eight seconds, as well as the pattern selector being on the pattern 77.

P.-S. : Totally unrelated to the theme of the article but I'm considering making a Matrix account. I'm considering leaving Discord after I heard they announced bringing age verification again (I should've done it sooner because they never said they were not doing it), but I don't know how it works (yet) and I don't know if it'll be worth it knowing I never talk to anyone on Discord and use it to check messages once every three months. I'll update on this if I ever make up my mind.

1/09/2026 : We're so back (to school)

Today was my first day at university. The day was basically just the teachers explaining what we're going to have this year, what are the rules, what to expect, etc. The buildings aren't really pretty but at least the campus is small and we have classes in only one building that has two storeys, so I won't have to climb a lot of stars like I used to in high school. I'm just pretty uncertain about how hard those classes will actually be and how much I will have to do at home, as most days I'll finish at 5.30 P.M., which is pretty late. But I guess I'll figure that during the year.
Also my creativity is back, yesterday I finished a video project that I left to rot for months, and I'm planning on finishing an EP for my musical projects, and writing more lyrics for my band.
I swear, me trying to use YouTube less and less will only do good things to me.

29/08/2026 : Black and white film is pretty cool

I finally finished a black and white film roll I had stored in a camera for months. It was an Ilford Delta 3200 ISO and I used it on an old Olympus IS-3000. Here are some of the pictures that came out of it.

Black and white picture. We can see two white boats on a river, alongside a quay. The one on the foreground is leaving the station, while the one in the background seems to be arriving there. A hill where fog covers the top and hides it. There are some building on the hill: on the left and center, high-density residences partly obstructed by the fog; on the center-right, a small tower made out of stone. Below those buildings and spanning over the entire width of the picture are houses hidden by trees. A kiosk occupies most of the image. It is located in the middle of a french plazza and is covered in ads for several newspapers. The opera house of Lyon seen for below. The central element is the 20th century dome that sits on top of the 19th century, lavish-looking, original building. On the ledge at the top of the old façade are statues of the muses. The entrance door of building, seen from far-away. The door is decorated by an arch that surrounds it, and columns locate on each side that support a balcony above. Over the door, a sign reads "Galerie des Terreaux". The door is closed and people sit in front of the façade. A young person passes by on a scooter. View from below of the sign of a movie theatre, that simply reads "Cinema". Next to it, we can see the sign of a tattoo shop, "Phoenix Studio".

15/08/2026 : Goodbye, Spain

Today I came back from Spain with my family, marking the end of three weeks quite packed with visits and interesting things. Overall things went nicely, I saw beautiful places and I did have fun.
Of course there were bad things that happened that I won't talk about because they are mostly personal, but in the end it all went better than I expected and better than the some other times.
I'll probably post pics and details of what I've visited in a future post, but for now I'm just going to rest and maybe play some games.

13/08/2026 : The Eclipse™

Yesterday was the solar eclipse that everyone in Western Europe was talking about. A lot of those who saw only could get to see it partially, but thankfully the total eclipse was visible from Spain, not far from where I'm currently staying at with my family.
We did do a pretty long trip down the highway and through the traffic. In fact, we took a gamble by choosing to keep going to where we initially planned to go, in order to see at least a minute of total eclipse, even though we risked missing it. Luckily we did arrive in time, and even a little bit before the start of the total eclipse, so we were able to prepare ourselves.
We watched the whole thing from a small park where the visibilty was really good. In fact, a lot of people were there to witness the event too, and everyone clapped as the Moon completely covered the Sun, making the latter's corona shine around. I even got the time to snap a picture with my camera after being left in wonder by the sight before my eyes. Here it is:

The moon eclipsing the sun in its entirety. Light from the sun can be seen shin all around the moon, lighting up an otherwise greyish black backdrop.

Overall the whole thing was really beautiful and good proof that no matter how advanced technology becomes, our planet's nature and the starred sky all around us will never cease to amaze humanity. And, as a bonus, here is another picture I took as the Moon slowly moved away from the Sun.

The moon eclipsing the Sun, though not in its entirety, as we can see orange sunrays glow from behind a certain point of the Moon.

17/09/2025 : They're closing down a place that develops creativity (and, of course, it's bad) (mmm.page article)

For one year I went to a center for creative technologies called TUMO. It's originally an Armenian franchise that got exported to other countries, like my home country, France. The purpose of the center is to help teens in the city develop their creativity while using digital tools such as computers, robots, etc. I appointed myself last year as I found out they did cinema there, which is where I hope to make a career soon.
I can't say I liked the entire experience though. The center is located in the outskirts, while I live in the main city, which meant I had to go on an hour long commute, every Saturday morning and on certain Tuesday evenings - when I was in the Labs phase, which was when we really delved into the creative activity we were doing, to get there. It got even worse when our car broke down which meant I also had to take the bus and go on the same commute to get back, as my dad couldn’t pick me up. Also, the schedules were clearly made for middle schoolers who had the time to go there and who lived near the center: on certain Tuesday evenings I finished school at 5:30 P.M. while the activity started at 6, which meant I would be late on those Tuesdays, inevitably.
I could ramble a lot about what was bad, but I still think it had potential. Why? Because, when I actually got behind the camera, or on the editing software, I enjoyed it. TUMO was probably one of the only ways I could actually film something with proper material and a team of proper passionate people. I think TUMO had a lot of improvements to do, but the goal was great, it at least did its job, which was to allow us to have fun doing what we liked.
Also, I think I couldn't have liked it that much, because I wasn't the target demographic of the center. Moreover, TUMO opened in my city in 2022, so it's clear they needed some time to develop their structure.
My departure from the center was incredible too. When I decided I wouldn't come back next year - because I did all the cinema activities, I knew my last day would be the event they organized on a Friday evening before the holidays. They showcased some of the creations from the TUMOians. And amongst them was the music video I worked on the four days before with other cinema folks, for a song that a band made within the TUMO center. The cinema "teacher" told me the day before that she wanted to display my version of the clip there so I wasn't really surprised when it was the one that appeared on the screen at the event - in fact I was a little underwhelmed as there was a slight delay between the sound and the image in the room and that was bad because I synchronized most of the editing with the song. But I was surprised to learn it would get posted on TUMO's Instagram page and YouTube channel. To be honest, that's when I concluded it was the best way to end the “TUMO” arc of my life - I wasn't even that nervous when I had to speak in front of everyone which is an amazing thing for me.
A television screen placed on the wall of a room that displays a video. On the video, we can see the title card that reads "stand up to the stars".
But as I went back to school, someone sent me a petition for the reopening of TUMO. I was like "wait, it closed?" and searched on the Web. I did get closed, in my city, due to budget cuts, and the parents actually received an e-mail that informed them of the closure.
Screenshot of an e-mail informing of the closure of TUMO Lyon.
This is the e-mail. It basically says the center won't reopen for now, and the activities are stopped. The children can still go there to recover their portfolio and give back their badges, until the 13th of September. And, of course, they'll update us on the situation. After that, I did a little more searching on the Internet. Here's what I found.
Screenshots of an Instagram reel about TUMO (initially) closing for the summer alongside a comment from someone who was informed about the fact TUMO would not reopen in September. There is also a comment from TUMO explaining the situation.
The comments from the previous picture are shown. A reply to the comment from TUMO, as well as more comments, are there as well.
The PR was really bad. No social media announcement, no update on the website, nothing. The only ones who publicly told the information were local newspapers/news sites.
The only way they talked about it on social media was through their latest Instagram post (which ironically was a meme about the center closing for the summer and how excited they were about reopening it in September).
Another batch of Instagram comments from confused and bewildered people, probably parents or family members of children who were planned to go to TUMO next year.
You can notice that one of those comments talks about how they thought the center's Gmail account got pirated, which really shows how sudden the closing was: no one was ready for it, not even TUMO's team apparently. The reason of the closing isn't even clear. I did mention budget cuts, but it wasn't announced in any official publication, the media just did their research.
And, like I said earlier, it was just communicated through this e-mail and those Instagram comments. Nothing on YouTube, nothing on TUMO’s website (both the city’s TUMO center’s and the franchise’s), no Instagram post and nothing on the regional government’s site (the regional government was behind the installment of TUMO in my city). All of the places on the Internet that I’ve mentioned look like nothing even happened, as if nothing closed whatsoever. I think it’s due to the fact that for now it’s considered a temporary closing, but a lot of people are convinced it’s a permanent closing in disguise.
I said in the title of this article that this was bad, but why? Well, I think the answer’s pretty obvious.
First of all, this was a center which purpose was mainly for the people attending it to find a job in a domain they like. Because, as they progress they gather a portfolio containing their works. Portfolios are really useful for creative jobs, to show what you’re capable of, and also really important when applying to a school.
Also, this shows some really bad decision making from the regional government. The center only opened in 2022, in a campus which a former president of the regional government, Laurent Wauquiez, once said was going to be the “french equivalent of the Silicon Valley”. So it seems pretty silly that they shut down what seemed to be a pretty successful part of a really big project due to budget cuts, without even giving it the time to develop fully.
But, moreover, and most importantly, this center helped foster creativity, which is something that is slowly fading away with the increase of social media consumption and generative AI. Let’s admit it though, as a center for creative technologies, TUMO held a lot of events to teach kids how to use gen-AI and I in fact think it’s one of the things that could have been improved there. But still, nearly no AI was used anywhere in our filmmaking process (someone used it once to generate an image for the music video, but that image didn’t make it in my cut of the MV, which is the one that ended up being posted and displayed to the public) and I assume it was roughly the same case for the other activities.
If the center decided to embrace a no-AI policy, it could be one of the weapons against the rise of gen-AI. But it’s really unlikely to happen as TUMO already showed to ride the AI wave.
Even like this, I believe TUMO still encouraged teens to really be creative, and showed that creativity also takes time (each project took 16h to complete) and various steps, which is something AI could never make you believe.
So, by shutting down Lyon’s TUMO Center, the government of the Auvergne-Rhône-Alpes region just made about hundreds of teens lose an opportunity to do something that they liked, to discover what it’s like to be creative despite a world that becomes more and more bland, and to find a job in a creative field that they like, basically setting them off to work at boring office 9-5 jobs that only make capitalists richer. Seems about right for a right-wing regional government.
Anyways, that last sentence might have been a bit of a stretch, but even without going this deep it’s easy to find why it’s bad: it just prevents teenagers to have fun doing something amazing in their free time. Which is why it’s a good idea that the parents gathered and tried to protest, and if you're kind enough, you can participate in this too. Don’t worry, I’m not telling you to join a group of people you definitely don’t know of, but just to sign a petition to put pressure on the government and might make them change their mind. Here it is. It just takes you five minutes and if you want to, you can even share it to other people along with this article too for more context (again, only if you want to). On the petition’s page they also update the situation if you want to get the latest news about it. For now these are the only ways to get involved, but the movement seems to be growing so making it grow even more is another reason for you to take part in it.
Stay safe and keep creating!

03/09/2025 : First philosophy class today! (mmm.page article)

Today was my first day of class at school and also my first ever philosophy class (in France we start studying philosophy on the last year of high school). The subject in itself seems pretty interesting, though the final exam is probably not the most fun part (it’s a 4 hours long written exam). The teacher was pretty much what I expected from a philosophy teacher: he started talking about Aristotle, said words no one’s ever heard and talked about “elevating our vocabulary/eloquence”.
Then at one point he started yapping about how we shouldn’t use AI for assignments because philosophy is about thinking and gen-AI doesn’t think (he’s right btw) and said it was copyright infringement and that it was very bad at writing philosophy assignments. He even concluded AI is like being in a cave and thinking by one’s self is the reality that’s outside of the cave (yes this is a slight reference to Plato). To be honest I pretty much agreed with him and didn’t even plan using AI anyways.
At the end of class he just gave a text to study for Monday. I don’t know how interesting or annoying this class will be though I’m really frustrated I have philosophy at 5:30 P.M. because it makes me get out of school at 6:30 when I could literally have finished classes at 3:30 on Wednesdays if it wasn’t for that one philosophy hour. We even formed a class groupchat to try and find an hour at which no one has class so we can move it there (I’ve never seen a class groupchat get created so quickly, it was literally created two hours after la “rentrée” yesterday).
Anyways, that’s all I have to say about my return to class today, hopefully everything goes smoothly this year so I can achieve what I want!

29/08/2025 : New school year and new projects (mmm.page article)

It’s been months since I last updated this site and I hope to do it more often in the future. And today we’re starting with the new school year approaching: on Tuesday I’m doing my “rentrée” (the french word for back-to-school day), meaning I’ll go to my high school for an afternoon, they’ll show us the class, the schedule, some teachers, give us documents, etc. I go on regular classes the day after that, on Wednesday. I do think, however, that we’ll get to know our classes as soon as Monday, as we’ll be able to connect to the school’s platform, Pronote.
This year will be my last year of high school as well, meaning I’ll have to take the Baccalauréat, the French final exam. I think it’ll be generally fine, I’m just worried about the massive amount of oral exams I’m gonna need to take, as an international student. At least I’ll be ready for any job interview, I guess…
Also, as it is my last year I’ll try to enjoy it as much as I can because after that everyone pretty much goes their own way (especially me, I’m like one of the only students who plans on going to film school). I hope I’ll stay in touch with my closest friends, but it’s pretty clear I’ll make new acquaintances and friends at whatever college or school I’ll be attending and that it’ll be the same for my high school friends. So yeah I’ll try to get the most out of every moment that is fun , out of every gig that I make within the school, etc.
On the projects side, I’m planning to document one of my school musical gigs again, like I did last year, but this time more accordingly to what I originally planned (last year was basically me narrating and yapping over footage of the thing, this year I’ll try to get much more interviews). But most importantly, my drum teacher is putting together a band where I’ll be the drummer and a close friend of mine the guitarist! Other people will join through a casting, and we’ll learn and rehearse 15-ish songs, play them live at several events (such as the Fête de la Musique, or the national day of music if you’d like), record a live session video and try to play at a small concert venue. Also it’s likely we’ll record an EP! So yeah it’s what I’m the most excited about.
Despite the obstacles and difficulties I believe it’s gonna be a great year, and I also hope it’s the year where I pass my film school application and get to go there as soon as possible.

19/04/2025 : A really cool CD purchase! (mmm.page article)

I really like physical format for pretty much every media that exists. This is the reason I enjoy film photography, DVDs and CDs and most importantly books (like I don’t even read that much but when I do it’s always on a book I can’t stand reading a story on a computer or phone for too long). And now that I’ll possibly get a CD player in a few months (I’ll talk more about that in a future article I guess), I thought it would be a good idea to seriously start a CD collection.
So, this Wednesday afternoon I went to a small record store in my city. The first thing I noticed when entering was that they were blasting some RHCP on the speakers, so I definitely enjoyed the ambience. Also, I quickly realized it was one of those stores full of shelves, where you’re surrounded by CDs, vinyl records and DVDs, and where there’s no width for more than one or two person between each shelf. The two persons who managed the store were really nice and welcoming. All of those elements already formed the vibe of a good record store in itself.
I went through the CDs and found one that was good enough for me to give it a try. After going to the checkout and paying for the CD, the cashier told me that I could spin a wheel and try to win some kind of prize or discount. When I spun the wheel, I got a 5 euros discount on another article. So, I naturally went back to CD area and picked up a CD of A Saucerful Of Secrets by Pink Floyd. I thought it would be a nice purchase to make as I’m currently getting a lot into Pink Floyd’s music. The thing cost 7 euros (instead of 12) and as I got out, I hoped the album to be good as it was definitely an impulse purchase made because I had the discount and the album piqued my interest a bit.
Yesterday I decided to listen to the Pink Floyd album so I took my computer and the CD case and got the CD out of it. Once again, I didn’t expect a lot from it, because even though I like psychedelic rock, this album didn’t interest me as much as their successful albums that got released in the 70s such as Dark Side of the Moon or The Wall.
While I started the CD, I took a look at the case. It was a pretty standard sleeve CD packaging, as a lot of CD packages are nowadays. On the sleeve of the left there was the A Saucerful of Secrets CD, that was currently in my computer’s CD player. I supposed the right sleeve had the booklet, but I noticed there was another CD, so I took it out and it was The Dark Side of the Moon?! I totally didn’t expect it to be here, especially because I don’t remember the people at the record store telling the packaging included it, and because I didn’t see it written anywhere. But it was right, it was a CD of The Dark Side of the Moon, more specifically the 2011 CD release (the same year that the other CD was released as well)!
I was really happy to find that I just got two Pink Floyd albums for 7 euros with one of them being probably one of the most amazing albums in music history. After finishing A Saucerful of Secrets (which I really liked) I immediately put the CD of Dark Side of the Moon CD in the player and had a great time listening to it.
I will definitely go back to that store if I need to buy a CD or two. Not because I hope to find another 2-CDs-in-1-case package but just because the ambience and the people are really nice. I’ll also for other good record stores, and possibly a store that sells cassette tapes as well, as the CD player that I’m getting can also play cassette tapes. And I’ll probably talk about my physical music collection more than once again on this page!
(by the way, the other album I bought along with those two Pink Floyd CDs is the Toto compilation Past To Present, I’m listening to it as I’m writing this and it is pretty nice)

Two CDs are laid on a table: one of "A Saucerful of Secrets" and another of "The Dark Side of the Moon", both by Pink Floyd. They are laid onto an open gatefold CD case. Above these elements is the booklet, which shows the cover for A Saucerful of Secrets.

6/04/2025 : The utopia(?) of an ethical social media platform (mmm.page article)

My parents showed me The Social Dilemma on Netflix a few years ago, when I was 14 or 15. Though the documentary didn’t stop me from consuming whatever content I was consuming back then, it sure made me hope that, somewhere on the Internet, there would be a platform like Instagram, but better ethically, and if it didn’t exist, someone would make it one day. That’s what the documentary shows at the end after all, the idea of a platform that doesn’t feed you content through an algorithm, but one that lets you choose what you want to see, a platform that isn’t here to make money out of your screentime and ruining your attention span. Overall, a platform that actually connects people.
That hope pretty much stayed at the back of my head, slightly resurfacing sometimes, especially when some alternatives to Twitter like Bluesky and Mastodon became known when Elon Musk bought the platform. But the recent situation with AI-generated things is the one that sparked a new reflection. In fact, I think I’m not willing to spend most of my time on a site that feeds me slop after slop thanks to an enigmatic piece of code, ruining my attention span (which is already quite ruined to be honest), with things that aren’t even man-made. The desire for something more human made me think about those ethical alternatives again, and this time with a more mature look that the one I had a few years ago.
To be clear, what I had in mind at the time was a platform pretty much like Instagram: easy to use when it comes to post, watch content and find friends, and as big as Instagram or Twitter. But without shady ways of making money. This could be possible, right? Well, after a few minutes of thinking, I quickly ruled out what seemed so realistic to the eyes of the 15-year-old me. I just had to think about BeReal, the platform that wanted people to make more authentic content, but that had to later add the possibility to make two more pictures if you made your BeReal post on time, for example. That new feature was there to increase the user engagement, as the platform could not make money only based off a 5 minutes per day use (because that’s what it is: you post your BeReal, see the ones of your friends, and don’t use the app for the remainder of the day). There’s no way for a platform to be “ethical” and remain easy to use if the people behind want to make money.
Ok, but what if making money isn’t their goal? Well, social media companies kinda have to. Hosting sites on a server costs quite a lot, and if you want enough servers to have as many people on your platform as there are on Instagram, you have to find the money for it. So, unless you find the money elsewhere (good luck for that), you have to earn it through ads, and for more people to see the ads, you need to keep the users in the platform as much as possible. And to do that, you need algorithms and UIs that mesmerize people into doom-scrolling for hours, while stumbling upon the ads that generate your revenue.
But there is still Bluesky. Bluesky looks quite promising to me: no algorithm, just feeds that you can choose, no ads, etc. But how much will it last? Again, if everyone from Twitter migrated to Bluesky (for that to work, we need to suppose Twitter users gained a brain in the meantime), the hosting costs might get too high. And maybe Bluesky won’t find enough money from paid subscriptions and stuff. So, back to the algorithms and the ad revenues. Great. So, the only way for an ethical social media platform to keep existing while not controlling its users and making money off of them is for it to remain niche.
But, actually, is it a bad thing? I mean, IG, FB and Twitter are owned by huge companies ruled by assholes whose goals are clearly to make their platforms as big as possible. If everyone is on their platforms, it might be because they wanted it to, and we accepted that fact like little sheep. Maybe it’s not much of a problem to not be able to find all of the people from your school on one app (although I have to admit it sucks). Maybe everyone just needs to follow their close friends, as it is important for actual human relationships, and that’s it. Maybe the ideal web is tens of platforms with a few hundreds of thousands of people communicating. I don’t know the answer to that, and in fact finding all your friends online isn’t really a problem if you meet them regularly in real life.
If you want to enjoy the Internet and have free will, the best solution might be to just look at websites and blogs made by people. There are services that do that: Neocities, and mmm.page (on which I made this site) are some of them. There’s Blogger and Wordpress on the blog side of the Internet (actually, does anyone under 25 use Blogger? I’m just curious). Each page is made by a human (at least for now) with love and passion. Even in my page, every element was carefully placed by me, every word typed by me, and every detail I thought of was added into the page by me. Individual websites are, according to me, the best part of the Internet because the person posting has also created the canvas on which they posted the thing. You can’t get more human than that. (also, shoutout to those who make banger sites on Neocities, I wanted to use it but I realized I barely know anything about HTML and CSS, maybe I’ll come back when I’ll learn the essentials)
And if you want to enjoy a mix of both, you can go to forums, or the Fediverse. Actually, I really like the idea of having social media where you host your own little social media inside. The whole is much less corporate and more user centred. Honestly, I’m considering making myself a Mastodon account to give it a shot. Who knows, maybe I’ll post my pictures on Pixelfed from now on.
If you read all that, honestly thank you so much, it’s my first entry on this part of my site and it’s a pretty long reflection. I think there’ll be more reflections, but also a few articles about my life. Also, bear in mind that I’m not that well informed about these topics, and that it was more of personal opinion than an actual research (If there’s a correction you want to do, you can contact me and I’ll update my entry, just cite your sources if you can). Also, I’m not immune to the social media algorithms, and I often find myself doom-scrolling on Instagram. That’s why I’m trying to improve my way of using the Web, hence the consideration of creating a Bluesky or a Mastodon account, and also part of the reason I’m making this websites. Lastly, sorry if my English is a bit incorrect, it's not my native language.
Anyway don’t hesitate to take a look at other things on this site, stay tuned for the next entries and have a nice day!